I seem to have spent a lot of time thinking. I think I would say that I don't seem to remember a time in my life when I did not think. I guess that leads us to the point of 'I think therefore I am'. I also think that some people would say that I sometimes don't think at all, and others would say that I over think and often use this to play with 'a big wooden spoon'(Goldthorpe,2011,daily). I think however, very simply; I just think.
So why blog about this? Well, I was thinking, about what it is to think. I guess it was like a sort of russian doll situation, or a mirror reflecting a mirror within a mirror, or a camera filming a TV, linked to the camera, filming the TV... Yes, I have been over thinking again.
But what have I been thinking about? I think I have been thinking about what I am. 'I think, therefore, what am I?' This is what I have been getting the cogs in my mind to turn over and over. And as time has gone on, and the valves in the mind have been trying to break the code, I noticed that I was not only thinking; I was feeling also. But what did I feel?
I suddenly realised that I had been thinking about what I had been feeling. I felt very connected and at one with myself, which is lucky for I would hate to see the mess if I was torn apart, and putting ones self together is about as difficult as M C Escher's hand drawing a hand. Quite impossible, a sort of chicken or the egg situation. Anyway, I have been thinking again and going off topic. So I had been thinking about what I had been thinking and decided that it had a lot to do with what I had been feeling. Confused? Well, I was. I found it difficult to decide what I has been thinking to make me feel that I was over thinking too much about what I was feeling.
In the end I thought instead of thinking and trying to work out what I was thinking and feeling, instead I would just think and feel and live, but try hard not to analyse. This is lucky, as with most things, if you leave them be, they will come to their own natural conclusions.
I had been feeling the very same to what I had been thinking.
I have indeed fallen in love.
